This morning I went to a funeral. It was graveside. It was for a baby who lived 42 days. It sucked. I cried. Then I cried some more. No words could be spoken. As I was walking to my car a uniformed service member of the Air Force got down on one knee over a headstone, took off his cap, and cleaned grass clippings and dead leaves off the headstone. Then I cried again.

I'm Moving To Corpus Christi Texas

That's right folks, I have decided that I am personally moving to Corpus Christi Texas because that is where this lady is moving too! This is Dr. Lochner my OB/GYN. She is amazing. I started to go to her when I was in High School and I have seen her at least yearly since then. I found it she was moving in May and have been totally bummed ever since.

I began going to her before I was an RN and worked on OB/GYN and was a little nervous to get to see her "in action" so to say when I got my job. She didn't disappoint. I trust her implicitly. Everytime I look at my belly I thank Dr. Lochner for helping me to not become a c-section. She stayed with me the entire time I pushed, that's right, 2.5 hours she stayed by my side and did not leave the room. I will always have a special place in my heart for her.

I have decided now that my options are to either 1. Have no more children, 2. Birth my children at home by myself (maybe just tie myself to a post in the backyard), or 3. Find a new provider. This is again the Catch 22. I work with all of them. Seriously, all providers in the greater Weber region and I really don't want to go to any of them. It's not that they're terrible physicians, it's just that with each MD I have an attached situation and memory of something that we have gone through together, a bad delivery, a terrible vacuum extraction head, an inappropriate behavior situation and I don't know who to go to. Hence where you come in...

I know these providers from a medical standpoint but I'm asking for your help from a patient standpoint. What OB/GYN do you go to and why?

If I don't get to many comments, I think I'm just going to settle for option #2.

Continuing Our Saga of Water Adventures

I ventured down the Gateway to find a dress for my sister's wedding. My father was very generous and had given me a giftcard, otherwise I would not have made the journey to Mecca. I love the Gateway, I always have, especially in High School where all I wore was name brand clothes. Now as a fat and frumpy 24 year old broke mother, I felt like I stood out and didn't belong. Strange how only 5 years ago I thought I was cool and fit in. Now I am the one being gawked at for wearing Ross capris, a pair of falling apart Roxy flipflops, an out of style Abercrombie shirt with ketchup, snot and lemonade spilled on it while pushing a stroller. My, I have changed. P.S. Don't go to the Gateway to find a formal dress. NOTHING, absolutely NOTHING! Major disappointment. But, I did give in despite the frustration of not finding a dress and let Little Buddy play in the fountain. Being the awesome mom I am, I only brought one diaper. So happened that when we got to the fountain he was stinky. So I couldn't just let him run in the water with the crap diaper on, and I couldn't put the clean diaper on him because then what was he going to ride home in??? Solution: Let him go commando. I discretely changed him in the stroller and let him run a muck in the water. We left when his shorts got so heavy that he was mooning the crowd.

Sometimes people throw the word "friend" around a lot when the person really isn't that close to them. This is an exception. One of my awesome FRIENDs that I work with, Tami, invited Brody and me over for a water play date. Tami is amazing. I love working with her. She is one of those CNAs that when they are assigned to your patients you breathe a sigh of relief because you know that things will get done. She is funny, has an awesome sense of humor, makes everything from scratch (which I hate her for) and has an infectious personality to boot. I love being around her. Our boys are about 4 months apart and so we thought it right to introduce them. Brody didn't know what to think when we walked around the back of the house and saw this monstrocity of a contraption. He quickly warmed up and loved it. Loved that Tami let him play with the hose. Loved going down the slide. Loved being wet.

Water Water Everywhere and PLEASE Don't Drink It

Love Love Love the Bountiful Pool/Aquatic/Gym/RockClimbing/Ice Rink center. It is an amazing facility and it's too bad we live so far away from it. Thankfully, my parents do not, a quick 10 minute ride on the freeway and you can be there. Little Buddy absolutely loves swimming, while actually anything with water. My sister and I love to take him but we found you definetely have to have at least 2 people to trade off taking him down the big yellow slide. The "hand-off" from my sister to me and here we go!

All I have to say is Alyson is a good sport. To keep Brody from drowning you have to lift him as high as you can when you are about ready to hit the water. Exhausting. Absolutely exhausting.

Yes, This Did Happen May 22

Where have I been? I tell you EXACTLY where I have been. Working full-time, being a fairly good mommy, mediocre wife, semi-effective primary leader, not quite Martha Stewart housekeeper, almost a gardner, a grateful that ARISE is finished music chairperson, and NOT blogging. I am in the middle of a week off from work and finally feel like I am catching up on my life. Hence, the post about what happened May 22.

Brody loves loves loves Shrek. Its at times a conflict in our mother/son relationship because sometimes he spends more time with Shrek than me, and I feel guilty that I let him spend more time with Shrek than me. He has almost destroyed his Shrek 2 DVD to the point where certain scenes won't play. He can identify every main character and verbalize their names to me. So when "Shrek: The Final Chapter" came out, I knew this would be the best opportunity for me to take him to a movie for the first time.

He did super good. I was pleased. Loved the popcorn, loved the big screen. I was grateful he wasn't a little bit older because I think he would've been scared BUT...We made it through the whole movie! We will definetely be purchasing this for him, can you say "Christmas Present?!?"